My keyboard is talking in the right tone again! It’s been several years since I can seriously think about writing and creativity. It seems I keep backspacing myself in trying to write and then erasing thought entirely. Why does my head do all the brainstorming but then suddenly freeze like an icicle and it seems forever to melt? If only my mind can talk to me about it, but I guess it only talks to itself.
People think chaos can bring out creativity. And sometimes I can do that with no problem. But most times I struggle to get my thoughts together or get them out. I am having trouble processing information like a computer. It just wants to shut down. Chaos is not my friend in regards to creativity. I have to combat it every day for it not to consume me or compromise my internal circuits.
It is now the Spring of 2023 and I feel it is time to break free! I need to reprogram my mind and emotions. I need to accept that life will constantly have commotion from many uncertainties. But I have so much to write about and plenty of creativity. I’m updating my system and my focus and spend each day typing something profound. I will not stay muted and not get stuck on a letter. I hope my writing will keep getting better and better!
